It is hard to believe it has been 12 years since that horrible day that you were taken from us.  We know that you are still with us and walk beside us.  I will begin the process of fighting to keep him in Prison and ensure that he will never walk free.  There is so much that I wish you had been around for, so much I want to say.  I just wish that you were here with all of us.  Things just have not been the same.  I wish things were different, if I had known that you had called the night before this I would have had you with us instead of at that apartment.  I wish that I could go back in time and change things.  I love you Tammy and I always will <3

Dear angel  Tammy u are the greatest in the world when u left my heart it felt like the other half broke it was the worst I hope I can be with u again someday i love u 

It has been 5 years since we have had Christmas together.  We all hang our ornaments that you made for us and then I pack them safely away.  My gingerbread house didn't turn out like I wantd it to, you were always the one that made those and I try to keep your tradition alive each year.  I tried to buy my husband a new sweater, but he says the best one he ever got was from you.  You always did have good taste.  Things just aren't the same without you here.  The kids are getting so big and they each cherish the memories of you, the things you taught them and the way you made them each fel so special.  You truly are and always will be an awesome Aunt.  We all love and miss you very much, Merry Christmas in Heaven Sis.

 i miss u so much i miss the times we had together we had so much fun  when u where here with bolwing and sleepovers and pillow fights and golf and movies and icecream  and i will always miss those times and it makes me so sad to see u gone and not being able to see u u make me get back up and try again all the time and i still have holly bear  and i kiss her every single night and see even still smells like ur house  and she reminds me of  u evry single time i kiss her  and  i know that i will never forget u in my head cuz u will always be  in my heart every where i go  and R.I.P AUNT TAMMY u will always be with me every single day of my life  and that man will regret what he did one day

i have to say i dont really know you Tammy but i wish i had cas i have heard you were a very nice, loving, and caring person inside and out! i have recived a purse that was once yours my aunt pam has gave me  and it means the world to me honsely feel like i can feel someone with me and its a warm feeling. and maybe its you with me keeping me safe. or my grandparents  but i have kept it close by and keep thinking one day we will all be up there with u and my grandparents and my couson thelma she  was a great women i tell u i miss her alot along with my animals :( . but i hope you have a wonderful christmas up there and you are blessed. keepmyfamily safe and all my aunts and uncles safe and cousons cas i love them very much <3 but rest in peace Aunt tammy.

Sis Its almost christmas once again and another sad one it is. Your not with us Brandon is in afghanistan and things are not right with my girls. Really wishing you were here I miss you Tammy and it doesnt take a special occassion to do that, its everyday I look at your picture and still light a candle for you. I will forever love you and miss you Tammy Lynne. I wish you were here so I wasnt writing this in your memories. I love you tammy merry christmas in heaven!

I can't believe it has been this long. I really had the urge to call you. I guess it is a feeling that will never go away.  We took Bryce, Kayla and Kendra bowling and all they could talk about was you.  They really miss you and so do I.  The holidays are almost here again and it isn't the same without you.  The girls will be 7 this month and they ask if you will be at their birthday party, I always tell them yes, that you are always with us. They are all doing good in school.  I just wish you were here to see them grow.  You always treated them all as if they were special and that they could do anything.  Kind of like you.  I love you and miss you very much.

Happy Birthday in heaven... I really miss you and have tried to find another to take your place and I just cannot allow myself to ever trust anyone as I trusted ywish I had given up more time to do the things we always dreamed of doing. We just let life go and never took the time like we had planned. We never could have known we had such a short time left. Our flowers will continue to bloom and I feel your touch now and then, as I feel you in the breeze. I hope God is taking care of you but oh how could he resist your smile and your talent. I look at your picture everyday and wish I could talk to you because whenever I needed someone you were always there. No birthday yours or mine will ever be the same. I do know one thing I will treasure is our trips to garf's for our sip and bitch and that no one will ever come close to what we had. I have not ben able to go to Black bear yet but when the time is right I know you'll be there too in some way. Love ya forever. KATou. You were the best unique friend anyone could wish for. I miss our time and

  Tammy 

    
When Dave and i got together you and i had a long talk. We talked about why we never got along as kids why you resented me. I am glad we did. We resolved all that and for the first time became true friends and sisters. You became my confidant my best friend as a matter of fact i could tell you anything you did not judge me you did not repeat any of it. You kept my secrets and i kept yours. I will never forget that. You were the first person that i could really trust to tell anything too.I came to you for advice. It didnt matter what it was you did not laugh at me you did not pick on me you did not embarrass me. You tried to understand and help me i had never had that nor will i ever have that again. You truly were one of a kind tammy. Our past was nothing that we had done but when we finally found our real relationship it flourished into a  very special one one that i will cherrish forever.I miss our talks our laughs our jokes and our catering you were the timer and the organizer of it all and i burned about ten pans of food at brandons wedding and its because you werent there. I have yet a lot to learn. I hope you stay close to guide me.I sometimes feel you close. I see butterflies and they remind me of you they are free with out a care as i hope you are now. Nomore pain as you deserve to be happy and without anymore anguish or pain. I find comfort when i think of you watching over my son in iraq.Nothing is the same without you the family has fallen apart no one knows the words like you would have to maybe put it back together or help it heal.You were good at that. I know that you would have been 47 today, but really you will always be 45 to me and i dont want to be any older than i am now because you are the oldest and the oldest has a lot of responsability in which you did and you met those responsabilities head on every day no questions asked. You just did it.I admire the person that you were never met anyone like you you were strong, seemed like you affraid of nothing. And you could do anything. If someone needed to know something you either new the answer or you would find it it was like it was never a problem to you.You were just so determined about everything. I wish i half the person you were Tammy.I will never let my grandchildren forget who you were.Kearstin has a doll that was yours its like her baby big and she takes  very good care of that doll its her second baby big it is very special to her she still talks about you and we have a song that we play for you sometimes when we are together.She knows your in heaven and that she will see you again someday as I know i will too, but i really wish you were here sharing more of this journey with us. I still shed a lot of tears,I miss you every day there are so many reminders and thoughts and memories of you and they will never fade because you were such a big part of my life and will be forever.I love you tammy lynne Happy Birthday in Heaven I wish i could send your flowers there.

 

“As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. All the love you created is still there. All the memories are still there. You live on- in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here.” ….. Mitch Albom

Tammy.... I was reading a book and saw this quote....it made me think of the impact you have made on my life as well as others. You will never be forgotten, and you are greatly missed. Please continue to watch over us and we will meet again soon one day...

I love you!

Sarah

 

My best friend has been gone a year and I miss her so. I have not been the same as a piece of me  left with Tammy. I miss our talks, our walks and just being able to confide in someone who never judged me even when she thought I was wrong. I smell your smell, I feel your touch and I know that someday we will be together again. Everywhere I go I have little reminders of our time together and no one can take that from us. You will remain a part of me and I  thank you for being my best friend.

I wish I had been able to say goodbye but I know your life is good and you'll never feel pain again and that helps me get to the next day. I love you and dream of the day I can hug you again and say thanks for everything you did for me and the person you helped me become.

Your best friend Kathy

Well here we are and he is now going to go to prison for a very long time.  I promise you Tammy that until the day I am with you again I will continue to fight for you and make sure he never gets out.  It was really hard for all of us yesterday, but we all know that you are always with us and you will give us the strength to go on.  You are very loved and missed and your memories will carry on.  You are the angel on our shoulders, you are our gaurdian.  I love you Tammy and I always will.

Tammy they say as time goes by its supposed to get easier. Well it doesnt it gets harder. Every day i miss you a little more and cry a little harder if thats possible. I still have ahard time believing that you are really gone. How someone as strong and independant as you were could have something like this happen to them. This world will never be the same without you. I really really miss you and wish you could be here but there is nothing I can do to bring you back to us. I would give anything to have you here even for one more day. I love you Tammy and I miss you so Much.

tammy as time goes by I still can't believe that you are gone but how am I am remembering some of the stupid things we did> I remember even as  preteens and young kid you always jumped out at me every night I new that you were there but you always got me on the way to bed you would make me so mad and scared at the same time I knew that you were there but you would really get me!!!! There are so many times that i know you are here I smell your lotion your candles will go out I helped a friend a couple weeks ago with a party and my house shouldn't have smelled nice I was doing eggs and had my garbage out and I smelt you. You were here with me. I have so many things I need to ask you and I need to know but you are not here to answer or to help me any more.The fourth wasn't the same at all no day is the same and never will be again I miss you Tammy so much I still cry.I still light a candle everyday for you and I pray that you  are in paradise where you hurt nomore.I wish you could be here!I love you sis and that will never change.

 

I can still see you standing in your doorway to greet me when I come over and hear your voice "hey sweetie". I'm so sorry you hurt so bad  in your last moments on earth. I know now you are in a better place with no pain. I know you are hating us all being sad and crying. We miss you so much, we are so sad we don't get to have you in our lives anymore. I am still trying to figure out the latte/coffee/cappacino machine-I want to be able to make them for people when they visit like you did for me and my friends. You had so many gifts and talents, I always looked up to you for your strong will and your independence, I am what I am today because of my mother/father and my mothers sisters. All of you have taught me something different that I have taken on in my characteristics...the only thing I can hope for is that my children will take the ones I got from you and keep passing them down. You had a such a good heart, you always took my side, you always comforted me, you never talked about your problems...We thought of each other as the same, the oldest sibling, gemini's, healthy people, intelligent, independant. You surpassed me in all of those things, I looked up to you, I can't redo houses, plant flowers, make gourmet food!!! you were my martha stewart and you made everything to perfection. I'm glad you called me that thursday before you left us, it was good to hear your voice, and I will forever play that conversation in my head over and over again for the rest of my life. I remember saying if we both are alone on weekends, we may as well be alone together. You're not alone anymore......that helps me sleep at night. I know you are truly at peace, I love you so much, and I look forward to seeing you again someday. Although I can feel you around me everywhere....miss you :)